Sept. 15: Does this thing have a reset button?

Do you ever wish you could just hit the reset button? Just put things back the way they were and start over? I had such a day yesterday. I just wanted to go back, start over, and make different decisions.

First, it was Monday. Mondays are always busy and stressful at work and I don't take a break. No break, mistake #1. Then after my regular job, I skipped dinner, and observed an Anger Management group. No dinner, mistake #2. I'll be facilitating my own group in a couple weeks. On my drive out to Clackamas for the group I learned my dad is back in the hospital. I almost turned the car around, but thought maybe it's better to be distracted by work than to wallow by myself at home. Well, the Anger Management group is not a light-hearted experience. Mistake #3. At 9:00pm I headed home, after a 13-hour stressful workday and a family emergency, drained and exhausted in every way. I stopped at the grocery store and bought a bottle of wine and a bag of BBQ Wavy Lays. Mistakes #4 and #5. I got home, poured myself a glass of wine, opened the bag of chips, and began stirring the pot with someone I care about via text. Mistake #6. Unable to turn my mind off I stayed up to the wee hours of the morning, making it incredibly difficult to drag myself to work. Mistake #7. It's like I said to myself, "Hey, you're feeling bad. Let's see what all we can do to make it worse." That's seven decision points I would handle differently, if only I could push the reset button. Ugh.